Marriage.
Is.
Hard.
Three words that nobody tells you when you're engaged and running around like a chicken with your head cut off planning a wedding.
Yes, it's blissful. Yes, it's lovely.
But marriage is quite possibly the hardest thing I have ever encountered.
I'm sure it's different for everyone. I'm sure some people have an amazing, flawless marriage (or at least they appear that way). But marriage for Justin and myself has been a struggle. This has quite possibly been the hardest year of my life.
People don't warn you (completely) about the financial changes and challenges that you go through. People don't warn you about how quick and easy it is to take everything out on your spouse.
I'll be the first one to admit it...Hell hath no fury like this woman. Its almost like I need a sticker across my forehead that says "WARNING: Amy is stressed! Do yourself a favor and pass over a bottle of wine and step away!"
Granted, sometimes I just wonder why my husband hasn't already figured this out yet?
Mind you, Justin and I are an extremely young couple...so our life has changed very fast and we are playing keep up over here. Within the past year, we have experienced marriage, 2 homes, new vehicles, new boat, 2 dogs, a new job, graduating college, losing a loved one, making new friends in new circles, finding old ones, etc.
Justin says one thing that cuts me to the core sometimes and I don't think he realizes how much things have changed. He always says to me that I've changed a lot...but our lives have changed so much.
As we quickly approach our one year anniversary, I think about what we have done to make it through the hard times that nobody tells you about. Yes, everyone says to "never go to bed angry" or to "always kiss your spouse goodnight" but those don't solve all of your problems.
I have turned to prayer throughout our fights and hard times. I know that God has all the answers. He has always been the light at the end of my dark tunnels.
While looking through Pinterest, I found a lot of "pray for your husband" pins and they are something that I practice religiously (no pun intended).
My prayer for my husband: I pray that we continue to move forward together. I pray that we continue to honor and to cherish one another. Enlarge our ability to believe in You, Your word, Your promises, Your ways, and Your power. Grant us the ability to laugh through hard times and the ability to grow our love for one another. Lord, please continue to bless Justin in all the ways that you have. I pray that you continue to give him patience to accept me and the things that I do. Lastly, please grant him the ability to continue accepting the changes we have made in our life for the better. We may be a lot different than we were the day that we met, but it is for the better, and I pray that you allow him to understand and appreciate that.
When in doubt, I pray for Justin. I know that we can make it through all of our trials...that's why I married him. He is stronger (mentally and physically) than any other man I've ever met. He continues to challenge me in ways that I never imagined and he makes me a better person. Thanks to him, I finally have a backbone and speak up for myself. He makes my heart happier than anything in this world.
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